before and after

Do you ever find yourself defining your life by before and afters? Like before I was a mom I would go out and party all the time, do whatever whenever, after kids.. ha better have a family member who wants them all, or find multiple family members who wants one or two while someone else takes the others, then make sure your other friends don't have their kids, plus make sure no one has to work the morning, so yeah by the time I finish the list it turns into another night in. Then it turns into so many nights in that you don't know what to do when you actually get a night out. Or before I was a wife (since I met my husband at 17, although we didn't marry till two years ago, i guess my "husbands girlfriend" would be more appropriate) I dated guys like every other week lol Please don't mistake me for someone who slept around because my husband has been and is the only one.. I never thought for a second I would actually meet someone i would fall in love with and never want to leave. Then one night a friend of mine brought him over, and I knew at that moment that he was going to have a major impact on my life. A couple weeks after we met we started dating. A month later he got me "hooked" we will call it.. At age 18 and 19 we miscarried a baby, at 21 and 22 we gave birth to our four year old, at 24 and 25 and pregnant with number two we got married and at 25 and 26 we welcomed our last child. Threw the years we have gained children, a nephew, step parents, friends, jobs, love, and trust.. threw the years we have lost parents, friends, jobs, family has gotten seperated from one another and I look back on it all and wonder how do we get here? I miss so many of my friends and family (both those you can and can't come back) how do we get back to where we were.. Then there are the moments that take your breath away and you remember know matter what happens, it is all worth it.