Childhood
Let me start with the earliest life changing event that I can remember.. the death of my wonderful daddy and little brother. What can I remember about that day, honestly not much.. My dad, aunt, brother, mom and I were taking my mom the college and then the rest of us were going to go to mcdonalds. Fast forward past droping her off and another driver fell asleep came in our lane since my dad and brother were on the drivers side and my aunt and I were on the passenger side, he hit the while drivers side and killed my dad and brother instantly. I was seven years old when I realized my life was going to be changed forever, that daddy's don't live forever, that at some point you must learn to let go, that life isn't innocent anymore.. I wonder to myself sometimes if I would be a different person if that event in my life never happened. My mother fell into a deep depression, which is understandable losing five year old son and a husband at the same time at the tender age of 26. So I made friends, some wonderful friends, who helped me threw it and kept me busy. Thank you to LV, MS, TWS, and EC. Anyways, this wasn't to have you feel pitty for me, I am strong and don't need pitty. I told you this to hopefully help you understand how I got to be.. well.. me.
Teenager..*yay*
They say that statistics show when a younger girl looses her dad at a young age most of them tend to turn into, whats the word.. for lack of a better word at the moment, sluts. I guess they try to "find" there dad in other men, or probably just to find a male that would love her. Now back to the point.. I wasn't that girl, I never slept around but i did 'date' a lot. When I was 15 I met a guy who just hit 17 and he liked me, I was on top of the world. DN won my heard with his personality, charm, he had a job at Meijer, was working on getting his lisence.. he was my first 'love'. We dated for about 7 months and then he dumped me because I wasn't ready to have sex yet. So then it was on to the next one..lol I met another guy DB whom I dated off and on for awhile and went to our first homecoming together, then there was CH. The problem was I always liked him and he only liked me when i had a boyfriend and then didn't when i was single. There were a series of guys I went threw until my friend brought over Edward one night. He was about to turn 18 and I 17. We started dating very soon after meeting that night. He eventually moved in with me, it made sense since he was spending every night there anyway. When we were 19 and 20 we found out that we were pregnant. It was a big shock as I just finished school and he was still trying to figure out what to do with his life. A few weeks later his passed away in a car accident and a couple weeks after that we miscarried that baby. That was also very devastating because I was finally ready to enjoy the pregnancy since the shock of getting pregnant was over. Finally he landed a job with his step dad traveling the country and building modular offices and I got hired into Ponderosa at age 18 and had been working there for a few years..
Womanhood
So Nick was working his traveling job and I was content for two years at Ponderosa. Until I got bored with it and went to rent a movie at a locally owned place here in town and they needed help. So I applied for the job, interviewed and got the job the same day.. Goodbye pondergrossa, with crappy pay and tips (wtf tips at an all you can eat buffet, let me tell you.. not many people) and hello easy breezy movie store. So I have worked there off and on since i was 20. The reason I say off and on is because when I was 18 i had pre-cervical cancer, they took it out and told me I was fine. Until I got pregnant with "nacole" at age 21 (2006) and they realized my cervix wasn't holding up so I went on bed rest and had her a month and half early, to have 5 seizures 1 week later while she was the NICU. When everyone was healthy I went back to work. Finally in 2007 Edward asked me to marry him at his family Christmas. The big day was set for May 30, 2009. In November of 2008 we got pregnant with "Grace."....
gonna have to stop for now because kids are getting fussy.. finish later..
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